all the words

It’s All in the Words

wayne 3I love quotes. Starting collecting years ago. Pages and pages. Categorized. Alphabetized. A little obsessed. But I love my quotes. At times, they comfort me. I find solace in the words. Peace. When life becomes difficult, I find words. It works. For me. I recently “lost” one of my favorite motivators. And what I discovered about his loss was even more remarkable. The parallels to my life. The connections. Unreal. He died on August 30th. One year after Gregger’s passing. Same day. In Maui. The same place Gregger left this earth. Dr. Wayne Dyer. A self-help guru who made sense of my world when it was upside down. Real words that lifted me. Made me think. Recharged my batteries. And helped me focus on abundance, gratitude, and blessings when life seemed anything “but.” wayne 2

Good morning world. Words of positivity. A focus. Why not? “Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it’s always your choice.” So what are my options? At this point. Only one. Move forward. Keep one foot in front of the other. Lately it has not been as easy. I am trudging. Digging my foot out of the sand. I was so sure of my direction. I am sure. But life is moving slower than I want. So I’m struggling with decisions. And my anchor is no longer here. I can’t ask for his help. What do I do? I have to decide alone. Much harder now.

“When you dance, your purpose is not to get to a certain place on the floor. It’s to enjoy each step along the way.” So I try. Enjoy the moments. But when I want to get there faster, it’s hard. When I want to get to the finish line and hurdles keep coming, what do I do? I keep jumping higher. Faster. More passion. More intensity. Eye on the prize.  

“It makes no sense to worry about things you have no control over because there’s nothing you can do about them, and why worry about things you do control? The activity of worrying keeps you immobilized.” So very true. Let it go! I keep trying to control the uncontrollable. Sell the house. Make the move. Settle down. Impossible! All I can do is sit back and let the cards fall where they may. It would just be easier if I could lay them out. Perfectly. One on top of the other. Stacked. In order. But life is not about order. Plans. Or control.

“You cannot always control what goes on outside. But you can always control what goes on inside.” So for today. Tomorrow. And the weeks to come, I will try. Because that’s the best I can do. Try.

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Mikki Eveloff

I am certainly no princess, but I did marry my Prince Charming. We had the once upon a time and the “almost” happily ever after until August 30th, 2014 when my Prince Gregger died tragically on the beach in Maui. I believe in fairytales. I believe in fate. I believe that “everything happens for a reason.” We planned a lifetime together…75 years to be exact. Someone or something changed our plans and gave us a new “ever after.” So here I am. I am still a wife, but now they call me a widow. I am a mom and grandma…three children, two in-laws, and two grandchildren. Life has changed and it’s time to move forward. It doesn’t stop, it keeps on going, so I do too. It’s my choice. Be happy, be grateful. It’s the only choice. I have a treasure trove of memories to share..it’s how I keep the happily ever after alive. A True Love Fairytale is 40 years of memories…it’s the essence of our happily ever after. It’s the imperfections of our perfect marriage. And it’s what makes today beautiful.

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