45 YEARS!!! 45 freaking years! We should be celebrating the hell out of those years. Our love. Our life. Even with this crazy pandemic it would have been AMAZING! How do I know? Because our needs were simple. It just took two. US. You plus Me. No fancy dinners. Trips. Glitz or glamour. Just us. Happy. Hanging. You in your boxers and Birkenstocks. Me in my baggy sweats! Bring on the Jamesons. A glass of wine. Chips for you. Veggies for me. Cheers to love. Cheers to us. Cheers to many, many more years together. 75 years. Right? Wrong. God had other plans. We were cut short. Life ended. And so did we. 7 years of celebrating. Alone. Remembering what was. And what will never be. But. One thing never dies. Love. You Are Forever In My Heart. Life changes. I change. Love remains. And nothing in this life can tear that away.
2020 was the year of all years. Unprecedented. Surreal. Traumatic. It was also a time of reflection. Growth. A time to recognize that with tragedy and loss there is always a glimmer of hope. Anniversaries, birthdays, holidays will NEVER be easy. Year after year. My anxious mind, empty heart brightens with the treasure of memories. Flashes. Glimpses. A lifetime ago. Kids. Innocent, carefree, ready to conquer the world. A snowy winter night. 1.10.1976. Friends. Family. Celebrating us. Our love. So much to learn. A lifetime ahead. Kids having kids. Growing. Learning. Teaching. Fighting our way through the highs, the lows, we battled to keep ourselves together at times. Yet the beginning ALWAYS kept us from NEVER ending. In the end, we were strong. Stronger than ever. More in love than we’d ever been. Best friends. Lovers. Life was settled. I am forever grateful for that beautiful chapter of my life. The best chapter of my life. Will I have a second chapter? I don’t know. My first chapter was my once upon a time…it didn’t end the way we planned. Not the perfect “happily ever after.” Cheers to 45 years of what “should have been.” I will forever celebrate the happiness, joy, laughter, and tears. Our beautiful family. I was blessed to share my life with you. I love you always.