NYC…The City That Never Sleeps!

May 30th, 2014. NYC with the Gregger. He was on business as usual, I was on fun. But we always made time in the middle for "together time." That was the best time. People always asked me, "Did you see this show, that show? Did you go to this museum? Restaurant?" Sometimes. But most of the time we were happy walking hand in hand down Fifth Avenue, through Central Park, or just around the city doing nothing. We'd stop for coffee, a glass of wine. We had our favorite eating hangouts. They were timeless. We were creatures of habit. Some would say we wasted our opportunities in a city like NYC, but we believed we used every opportunity we had to spend time just being. Gregger loved New York. If he Read more [...]
9 months

9 Months

Dear Gregger, Nine months. They say time flies when you're having fun, but that doesn't really apply in this case. This is not fun. Not having you here is NOT fun. I keep thinking that it's just a bad dream and I'll wake up to see your smiling face in the kitchen, all sweaty from your morning workout, drinking a cup of coffee, engrossed in the morning paper. But you're not there. It's still, silent, and empty. I want to call you and tell you things. Funny, sad, gossipy, nonsensical. I just want to talk. I miss my best friend. Nine months. I think about what you've missed and what's changed. It's crazy! Looking back we managed life as well as any bronc rider, holding on with grit,strength, courage, Read more [...]
Thanks for the Memories

Thanks for the Memories

I just wanted to send a "shout out" to Facebook. I look so forward to my memory notifications every day. What was I doing last year? 2 years ago? 5 years ago?  A few days ago those memories brought Gregger to life. I saw him smile, laugh, and dance like the crazy guy he was. Merely 2 years ago Gregger and I were dancing our hearts out in the middle of Ashley and Tyler's living room to some silly dance video game. We were making fools of ourselves in the grandest way, but why not! It was a room filled with laughter, joy, and an abundance of love. Neither of us got it, but we were game. Anything for a good laugh, especially when spending time with the kids. Special times. Cherished memories. Read more [...]
time is today

Time is Today

Time is such an interesting concept. When I was younger I believed time was an infinite cloud of dreams waiting to happen. Time was about growing, changing, making mistakes and righting them again. When I was 5, I wanted to be 10; when I was 10, I wanted to be 16; 16, I wanted to be 21, and so it went until about 30. Time never stood still, it never stopped. It didn't care what I was doing, wanting or needing in my life. Time continued on and still does. Only now time moves so much faster. I think time started racing after my kids were born. I suddenly had this urge  to slow it down, stop the clock, sometimes just turn it back. Time makes sense of our moments. It organizes our life into past, Read more [...]
chip chip hooray - a true love fairytale

Chip, Chip Hooray!

So February 24th was National Tortilla Chip Day...I discovered almost every food is worthy of it's own National celebration day, but National Tortilla Chip Day, this one would probably make Gregger smile more than his birthday, our anniversary or the birth of his children! Tortilla chips - even on his worst day, these would make that man smile! Round or triangulated, slightly salty, crunchy, crispy...simply irresistible! Every night the bag awaited him accompanied by his favorite salsa...sometimes chunky, sometimes smooth...sometimes mango mixed or black bean and corn. He munched and we caught up on the events of the day...his work, my "whatever." A night without chips was a day unfulfilled. Read more [...]
Sunday Funday - A True Love Fairytale

Sunday Funday

 I have a love-hate relationship with used to be my favorite day of the week. It was "our" day together. I would sleep in a little bit (lucky to push past the 7 am mark) and awake to an already sweaty Gregger sitting at the kitchen table reading the Sunday paper. The coupon pages had been separated into piles across my kitchen counter...why he believed I was still cutting coupons, I have no idea! Sometimes I would cut them and give them to him just to make him happy. He got so excited with a Crest or Tide a buck and he smiled! My coffee cup was neatly set out on a paper towel, spoon by its side, equal packets and my sugar free syrups all ready to pour...who couldn't Read more [...]