It All Comes Full Circle

Life is about changes. And plans. And changing those plans. It's about stages. Adapting. Or not. Some people live spontaneously. On the edge. Others plan. I am a planner. I like routine. As a teen, I planned out my life. Special ed teacher. Check. Married at 21. Check.  First child at 25. Check. Three to five children. Check. Physical issues stopped me at three (along with Gregger's objections). I would have gone for five! What I didn't prepare for were the unexpected bumps along the way. I planned. I prepped. I prepared. I never thought about the curve balls thrown along the way. I'd have to be ready to swing, catch, strike out, or hit a home run. I never knew what life was going to throw Read more [...]

A Letter to Myself…Lessons I’ve Learned

Dear 19-year-old Mikki, You have been knocked down. Flat face. You will feel like you can you never put two feet on the ground and run again. But you can. And you will. Faster than you've ever run before. Alone. Terrifying. Intimidating. Daunting. You will pack your bags and head to California. San Diego. And it will work. You will find a small place. Safe. Venture out into comfort zones. Meet people slowly. You will be overwhelmed by the warmth. Kindness. Compassion. You feel welcome. In a short time, it feels like home. And you will grow. Life becomes real. You will write. A lot. You will write about life before. And after. You will write about lessons. All that you've learned. You will write Read more [...]

A Letter to Myself…Life Changes

Dear 19-year-old Mikki, Your life will change in the blink of an eye. One minute you will be living the dream. Happily married. Loving life. The next you will be standing on a beach. With your kids. But you will be alone. For the first time in your life. You will be surrounded by strangers. You will be confused. You will not know what to do. Where to turn. You will cry. You will scream. You will be numb. And then you will be strong. For your kids. They need you. More than ever. You will move slowly. An out of body experience. You will think it is a dream. A nightmare. It's not. It's reality. And you must figure it out. You will have to do things. Things you don't understand. Phone calls. Read more [...]

A Letter to Myself…Celebrations and Endings

Dear 19-year-old Mikki, 2013. Your story continues. You will have a momentous year. A year of celebrations. Milestones. Surprises. Lots of surprises. "Remember to celebrate milestones as you prepare for the road ahead." That's what you do. You are preparing. You don't know it. But you are. You are packing the year with joyous occasions. Love. Happy times. Family. Your heart will be overflowing. Bursting. Cherish that feeling. Embrace it. EVERY. Moment. You have. You will know why soon enough. You will surprise hubby for his 60th birthday. The first big surprise in 40 years of togetherness. And you accomplish this huge task straight from your hospital bed. He won't have a clue. This is more Read more [...]
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A Letter To Me…And the story goes on…

Dear 19-year-old Mikki, After many years of building your family, business, and lives together, you and hubby start reclaiming your lives. Your kids will move on. They will move away. Across the U.S. One on the east coast. One on the west coast. One stays put. It won't always be easy. You'll want to visit. They'll be busy. You'll have grandkids. You won't get to see them as often as you'd like. Not the fairy tale you dreamed about. They have their own agenda. You wish things could be different. But they aren't. Someday. You will wait. But your heart will hurt. Be patient. "All things are difficult before they become easy." They may never become easy, but they will become better. Once again, Read more [...]